#regulus is just too controlled in public

[maladaptivewriting]

james talks a lot when they’re in public, but in private? regulus never shuts the fuck up

[aithusarosekiller]

Modern au where the black brothers reconcile and slowly build up their relationship again so Sirius (who obviously knows James thinks Reg is fit) warns James not to make a move on Regulus until he says he can because they don't want to jeopardise the brothers' bond while it's still tentative and 'clearly Regulus isn't ready for that yet' (wrong but out of love and worry, Sirius always sees him as a weak idiot regardless of the universe)

Almost immediately that rule is disregarded when Regulus figures out James can't look away from him and decides to make a move. They start dating but haven't told anybody yet because they still haven't found their feet yet and want a while to figure it all out first and let Sirius warm up to the idea of James flirting with him first. Time goes on and it gets increasingly more serious until it's completely spiralled out of control and they're planning to move in together while still having not gone public with it. Sirius still hasn't said he's okay with it so they haven't told him either and they've held it off for so long that now it just feels useless to think about.

They end up getting in a huge fight over absolutely nothing and have the ugliest, messiest breakup either of them have ever been through. They're bitter and angry and trying not to make it too obvious. Naturally, the first thing Regulus is going to do is run to Sirius to tell him that James had started a relationship with him and fucked it up before James was able to tell him himself. His plan is to get Sirius firmly on his side and make him yell at James because he is dedicated to being aggressively petty to him now.

This plan fails when Sirius instead chooses to spend his time trying to get them back together because now he really thinks about it they're kind of perfect

It's not the response either of them are anticipating but it works in the long run because they end up getting increasingly more bitter and teaming up against Sirius, which forces them to talk and get over themselves

[itsjaywalkers]

laurie do you have any spare boxer!barty headcanons… from boxer james au…

SAINTS ANYTHING FOR U BABE U KNOW THIS

*cracks knuckles* okay so

he fights very methodically, almost like he's fucking possessed sometimes BUT his rivals still have a hard time reading him and predicting his moves bc he's also . reckless . and will break routine all of a sudden with the most dangerous combination u can think of

a lot of ppl are convinced he plays dirty or even cheats but the truth is that he's just Good and really fucking smart

as in, the thing about boxer barty is that he can get a read on his rivals during the first handful of seconds

yes he's strong yes he's a wild card and yes he has the technique but what makes him win at the end is his ability to . get into his opponent's head

the exception to this is james and not bc barty can't read him. it's simply that the hatred they profess each other is so visceral he just goes fucking Feral. both of them do

speaking of, they rarely get to finish their matches bc they always end up disqualified halfway through bc it gets Nasty pretty quickly when those two are involved

he's been on so many scandals. So Many. it's sort of ruined his reputation but his fans think is part of his charm

like . you know how athletes are very careful when it comes to their public images and take care of their bodies or whatever . yeah barty doesn't give a fuck about that and you WILL see a headline about him getting blackout drunk after one of his victories

this is mostly due to how controlling his father used to be back when barty was still under his thumb

in a way, most of what barty does has something to do with his father one way or another

everyone knows they had a very bad fallout like . it's public knowledge but since they don't have the details they're all soooo curious

interviewers know not to bring barty's dad up tho bc barty has flipped his shit before and on national television too so . they stray away from the topic completely

he's anti pr. his team has tried to clean up his act so many times. it never works. they've given up. at this point they're just ready to do some damage control

most of his money goes to his mother (his parents are divorced in this one and since his dad left her with pretty much nothing after they broke things off, barty took it upon himself to take care of her)

in fact, he lives with her

whenever barty loses a fight is Always on purpose

because he's obsessed with a certain nurse.. so he lets himself get beaten up from time to time just so he has an excuse to go see said nurse.. (it's evan. evan is the nurse)

evan is odd and offputing and he doesn't seem to like barty very much BUT he does seem to enjoy the sight of blood.. and analysing ppl's injuries even more than he does fixing them up.. so barty's happy to let him poke around

one time he lost a couple of teeth after a especially hard punch and while they tried to check his head and take him to the hospital barty's only concern was finding his lost teeth so he could bring them to evan

his friendship with regulus starts off as him finding reg Hot while simultaneously wanting to piss james off

but they end up Clicking and reg is the very first person barty opens up with about his dad + everything that happened with his mum

he had a thing with lily a while ago but it was mostly casual and he broke it off as soon as he found about her also sleeping with james.. they're still friends tho!! and barty is very fond of her

his first kiss with evan happens after he's dizzy and very out of it bc of the amount of blood evan just took from him (he spends more than a week thinking he dreamt it)

honestly most of his appointments with evan can be summarised by barty getting a lot of random erections and evan blinking at him with his dead brown eyes while he pokes around his body and worsens every single one of his injuries (before actually patching him up)

and im gonna stop myself there bc this is getting out of hand

[spiritussancto1]

Something, Something, We're Screwed

jegulus microfic 750 words

Regulus was just trying to get to potions in some semblance of punctuality. Barty had already held him up with questions about modifying a spell for ten min before Reg had worked out that this was not classwork but a prank that Bats was planning for Rosie’s birthday next week. Personally, he would not feel celebrated and amused by having his arms turn into octopus tentacles whenever he got in the bath, but perhaps that passed for affection between Barty and Evan.  He was trying to remember if he’d added the bit about the antidotes to his homework when his brother yelled “Babybro!” and fell into step with Regulus, slinging an arm around his neck. Remus smiled as he joined them on Sirius’s other side. Those two were joined at the hip lately.

  “Siri. Must you?” Reg sounded fond but tired. He compromised by not throwing Sirius’ arm off.

They each made a small face at the nicknames. The same slight involuntary nose wrinkle, just on one side. It was a much smaller twitch in Reg, but all of his real expressions were tiny. The telegraphed ones were for other people’s benefit.

  Sirius sighed in a put-upon act. “I must, actually. It’s my duty to love on my brother whenever I get a moment.” Sirius gave him a smacking kiss on the forehead and Reg had had enough, his withering stare belied by the gentle way he disentangled himself.

  “Yes well, something, something, family duty fulfilled, blah blah fondness. I’m afraid I have 18 inches on wolfsbane to write so if you don’t mind...” Reg said distractedly but that got his brother’s full attention and Sirius tilted his head quizzically.

  “That’s a James thing,” Sirius said flatly

  “What is?” Regulus asked, confused by Sirius’ reaction

  Remus was suddenly staring hard at Reg too. “No, that’s a Prongs thing. He only does that with us,” he said

It was just a flicker before all Regulus’ control was back in place but Sirius caught it. Terror. He narrowed his eyes at his little brother.

  “Who does what?” asked Regulus, looking totally lost. It was a good act. 

  Sirius sounded like he was trying to sound casual now. “The whole ‘something something/blah blah” shorthand. James does that. Did you pick it up from him?”

  Regulus shrugged, saying, “oh, I guess I must have.” Two could play at casual.

  Remus shifted to Reg’s other side, hemming him in, on the hunt with Sirius. “Do you know James that well?” he asked, trying to distract the younger boy from Sirius. Unfortunately this had the effect of cornering Regulus. 

  “I don’t know. He says that all the time. I heard it in passing too often,” his whole body had gone icy cold but he’d be damned if either of them would see it.

  Sirius wasn’t convinced either. His voice sounded silky as he said, “You didn’t hear that in passing. He doesn’t do it in public.” Caught.

 “He does it with us when he’s too tired to mask,” Remus explained, “When he can’t keep up the pretext of conversation expected of him. He just...says what he’s trying to do but can't. He trusts us to know that he’s not being rude, he’s just out of spoons and knows we get him.”

  It took a moment for Regulus to absorb this. It was an unmasked thing, wasn't it? A vulnerable thing. How did James get him in a habit like that!?

  “James unmasks with Reggie? When do you hang out with Prongs, Reg?” Sirius sounded baffled. Regulus needed this conversation to be over right now.

  “I don’t know what either of you are talking about,” he said dismissively and promptly stopped walking just long enough to duck behind Remus, who had continued a step or two, and disappear into the nearest restroom. In the stall, he pulled out a particular galleon and charmed it to read, “We might be screwed. Astronomy tower, 10pm,” then flashed it with geminio so Potter’s would match and warm in his pocket. A few min later he got the response: 

  “Only ‘might be’, Love? I’ll have to plan you a treat to convince you.”

  It took him a moment to process that James’ grasp on muggle slang might be different from his own. Possibly they shouldn’t attempt it. Annoyed, he sent back “I'm not flirting with you, Potter. Your stupid expressions might have just outed us”

  Across the castle, James stared at his coin in dismay, wondering what he’d done wrong

[ezkel]

After spending years being rejected at every turn, James isn’t sure he’ll ever be loved the way he craves. Even now that he’s gotten over his crush on Lily and they’re now close friends, he understands why she never liked him back, he’s too much. She tells him it's nothing to do with him and that she had spent those years pining after her best friend, now girlfriend, Mary. Still James feels as if he's too much and that if he wants to eventually be truly loved romantically then he needs to tone himself down, he needs to be less James in his approach with those he wants a relationship with. 

Especially when his current crush is none other than cold and distant Regulus Black. He told Sirius about his crush as soon as he was aware that it wasn’t going away. He cried to Sirius saying that he knows that Regulus would never accept him for his all in attitude and his love for PDA. Sirius at first warned James that Regulus would never go against his parents for anyone, not even if he did feel the same for James. But as Sirius watched James sulk about his crush, he softened and told James stories of Regulus from their childhood, which only made James’s crush worse, the knowledge that Regulus used to read sickly sweet romance books when their parents weren’t looking, telling Sirius with wide eyes that one day he’d have a love that moved the stars like in the books.

However, James didn’t just develop this crush out of nowhere. Sometimes when James gets up early in the morning to get some quidditch practice in, Regulus was already there and they would spend those mornings practicing together, Regulus’s snark working better to wake him up than the cold air flowing around them. Regulus’s appearance on the field was never consistent and whenever James asked about it Regulus just leaves with a slight flush to practice his seeker skills on the other side of the field before leaving way earlier than he would have, had James not asked. 

James tried not to flirt, he didn’t want to get his heart broken but every time Regulus looked at him with that half smile smirk, James’s heart only grew in size. He tried desperately to not let his heart out, to not scare Regulus away. But the first time James accidentally flirted, Regulus didn’t even hesitate to tease him, not in the cruel way that he had expected but in a playful way. For a moment James thought that maybe that was Regulus flirting back. Slowly James became less guarded and started accidentally flirting with Regulus, but it always ended the same, playful teases and joking degeneration. 

Eventually it even spread to off the quidditch pitch, they’d flirt? In the hallways, in the astronomy tower, in the great hall, James couldn’t help but find Regulus everywhere, their conversations didn't even change tone in front of people. Sirius looked surprised every time Regulus would tease James, Remus would mutter about public indecency, Peter would laugh at how flushed James got every time Regulus responds with a cutting remark, Lily would joke about speaking at their wedding after Regulus leaves. James told them repeatedly that nothing was going to happen and that Regulus couldn’t possibly like him the way James does for him, this was only received with a disbelieving look from all of them. 

One morning it all changed. James was too tired to keep himself in check and his flirting came out unfiltered, fully James. Regulus went silent, James who hadn’t been looking at Regulus had frozen, terrified to look at Regulus and face the inevitable rejection. But when James did look, unable to help himself, all he saw was a deep red flush and a look of wonder on Regulus’s face. It caused James to fly towards Regulus, watching his face closely as Regulus slowly regained control. 

“Potter, you just- i thought it was all a game for you, I thought you were just being playful” Regulus spoke, voice full of shock, eyes full of hope. 

“I tried not to flirt with you, I thought you’d never let me, but I couldn't help myself, you're just so… you're just so you” James admitted, eyes drifting to the side awkwardly. He hears Regulus snort and feels Regulus's broom brush against his as he moves closer to James. 

“why would you even think I wouldn't let you flirt with me.” Regulus asks softly, hand moving up to James’s cheek to make James face towards him.

“Because I'm too much, I didn't want to ruin our mornings with my overbearing feelings” James mumbled, not wanting Regulus to know how deeply he already feels for him, but not having any other way to explain.

Regulus sighs, looking at James like he’s an idiot, “James, i hate waking up before 9am, surely Sirius has told you this. Do you think I would willingly wake up at FIVE in the morning to fly around aimlessly if I didn’t also have ‘overbearing’ feelings and just wanted to spend some time with you.” 

“But-” 

Regulus interrupts, his fingers on James’s face tightening, pulling his face closer to his. “James, you're not too much, I want you to be you. No holding yourself back. Be all in, be overbearing, I want you, not some held back version where you pretend to not be as insane as you are.”

“...oh..., Reg I- fuck, you're so amazing” James breathed out, finally letting his barriers drop.

“I know” he says, his open expression being replaced by his usual smirk, “so what do you say Potter, are you finally going to be yourself or do I need to keep telling you what literally everyone other than you seems to already know.” 

…

When James told Sirius what happened and that they were together now, Sirius only gaped 

“James you didn’t tell me he got up to join your morning practices, Regulus tried to kill me once for daring to talk to him before 8am, you've been talking to him before 6???? And he hasn't killed you???? Hes in love with you what the fuck”

[cressthebest]

Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 21

chapter 36:

1. “It's been so long. Oh, there you are, here you are, hi,” *deep breath* AHHHHHHHHH

2. 😭😭😭 “Remus keeps a firm grip on him and turns around to promptly leave, which is probably a little rude, considering that the others are here and may wish to greet him, but he honestly can't bring himself to care about that right now” i would expect nothing less

3. WOLFSTAR REUNION!!!! I AM IN SHAMBLES!

4. “On the way, James glances back with a grin, internally wishing Sirius all the good things, because no one deserves them more.”

oh. wow. that’s such a soft line. it’s literally making me melt

5. “Remus could not be more in love if he tried.” shit shit shit shit sobbing. wolfstar deserves the world

6. “He does love Sirius, though. Loves him dearly, with every defiant bone in his body. This man, who doesn't even realize the importance of what he's just done by giving Remus an unopened envelope. Remus, who owns nothing. Remus, who has nothing. Remus, who is not granted privacy or freedom for anything like this, for anything at all.”

i am on PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION and i am BAWLING my eyes out as silently as i possibly can. y’all don’t understand the restraint i have right now to not loudly sob

7. the LETTER has me CRYING

8. THE SECRET MESSAGE

9. oh, okay. remus killed an auror/greyback. it’s honestly not as bad as i thought it would be. also, i love the lily and remus duo. they’re so iconic

10. i LOVE LOVE LOVE that zar made a point for sirius to have the discussion that his demisexuality is NOT because of trauma and he’s always been that way. it’s beautiful <3

11. “”You can ask Regulus and James; I walked around for a solid month making everyone call me Mr. Sirius Macdonald."” STOP PLSS THATS SO FUNNY

12. SIRIUS JUST TOLD REMUS HE LOVED HIM!!! this is literally so sweet

13. andjskjdksksjsms the authors note:

“sirius, internally: a guillotine could not sever the head im about to give this man. good for them 😌”

chapter 37:

1. i’m starting a gofundme to get regulus a balcony

2. "”Sirius doesn't let me drink," James replies flatly.

"Well, don't say it like that, James. You make it sound like I'm a strict parent, or a controlling spouse," Sirius grumbles. "And I do let you drink, in moderation, when you're in a safe environment and in a good mental state. Don't forget to mention that you only let me drink within those same rules."”

i bet james is upset with the rules he made for sirius so long ago. came back to bite him in the ass

3. describing sirius as “ruffled like an offended bird” has done wonders for my mental health

4. james, remus, and sirius are all hanging out and i am beyond angry that peter doesn’t get to share this moment

5. pandora is such an angel and doesn’t deserve this pain

6. pandora and reg friendship >>>>>>>>>

7. their outfits for the night!! every last one of them is slaying so hard

8. “There's a tense moment where a group of murderers all stare around at each other, not opposed to adding a few more names to their lists. Oh, and Pandora is there, too, startlingly calm despite this.”

yaxley needs to shut his fucking mouth and stop implying that sirius will fuck his way through issues

9. “"You know what they'll assume we're doing."

"Running away," Regulus mutters.

James sighs in exasperation and fond amusement. "No, Reg. Fucking. They'll assume we've snuck off to find a corner to go fuck in."”

😭😭😭😭😭 i love reg. he’s so ready to leave

10. jegulus is getting their shit together and improving. i’m so glad

11. “James swallows. "They're—they destroy things now, when they never did before. They're rough sometimes. Bloody."

"Warm," Regulus counters, pressing another kiss to James' shaking fingers. "Steady. Strong. These hands hold the people you love. These hands care for them. They're gentle. Tender."”

this is love. what they have is love. it’s messy and broken and so difficult, but they’re trying and it’s love

12. and once again we have wolfstar my true loves ☺️☺️

i feel like nows a good time to add to respect bizzarestars’ wishes to not have the fic reposted or reuploaded a different site. i can’t remember his wishes about bookbinding, but respect those as well.

thank you, lovely people

[quantumelepant]

Hi, since THE POSTING of the band!au is close (dare I say impending?) I give to you Black brothers angst, in snippet form. Good deals, here.

(these are colossal, enormous, immense words from someone who has yet to choose a title and dreads the day the introduction will have to be written, but we live in the now and I'm 60k in and an exhibitionist so the date really is close and dependant on my weak self control)

The thing's unedited

“You think you can go around doing whatever the fuck you want?” Sirius turned around quickly. “Oh, so you talk. Cat didn’t get your tongue.” It was cold, he didn’t plan to stay outside too long, he had only gone out for a smoke. “You had no right to choose for me,” Regulus got closer, he was an entirely other person. “You don’t get to speak in my place, not even when you sing my songs. You’re giving a voice to my words.” Sirius was overcome with a deep urge to see him scream, cry, beg, be more than whispered threats and featherlight existence. “Well, I’m not just a tool you use whenever you see fit,” he got closer, had a speck in Regulus’ irises revealed something, he couldn’t miss it, it was a weapon or a plea. “What did you think you were doing today?” “I was helping you!” Sirius shouted, arms open, let a comet come down and smash their heads together, brains mixing, maybe then they would speak the same language. “I was giving you a chance to see them for what they are and then I was giving you a chance to leave for good.” “Who told you that that’s what I want?!” Regulus raised his voice, too. Just a little. Not enough. “Who asked for your help?” “This is a public street,” Peter had come out of the bar at some point. James was right behind him, watching. “It’s for the better. Why can’t you see it? You don’t belong there.” “And where do I belong, huh?” Now they were close, boring into each other’s skins, looking for weaknesses, tectonic plates ready for a quake. Regulus sneered. “Here? With you? You’re good at one thing and one thing only, Sirius. Destruction. You ruin every single thing you touch. The oldest intact thing you have is still a ticking time bomb,” he finished in a whisper. Sirius looked at his face, he wet his lips a bit, then a single roll of laughter escaped them, breathy. “Shit,” James said, milliseconds before Sirius hit his brother.

[namusthetic]

Marauders' Era

The Slytherin Skittles

From the Marauders' Era fandom. Decided to lounge about in the Slytherin common room? Join the Skittles for a late night Slytherin chat.

Regulus A. Black

"From far away I wish I'd stayed with you, but here face to face, a stranger that I once knew.

I thought if I wandered I'd fall back in love. You said distance brings fondness, but guess not with us."

- Astronomy, Conan Gray

Doesn't ask for help

Overachiever

Covers his deep insecurities with a god-complex

Abandonment and trust issues

Suffers panic and anxiety attacks, the others know exactly what to do when it happens and huddle around him, holding hands and grounding him, until he starts breathing normally again and stops shaking

Protective of his chosen family

Instead of fighting to keep people in his life, he lets them go because in the end he thinks he's never enough to stay for

Hates loud noises and making noise when moving or walking

Deeply misunderstood

Tries to remain detached and cold as much as possible because knows he'd end up caring too deeply

Self-isolates when he doesn't know how to deal with his feelings, luckily, whenever that happens, the others storm his usual hiding spots and force him to go outside and enjoy himself

Escapes from his own thoughts by reading or listening to music compulsively

Barty Crouch Jr.

"I used to like liquor to get me inspired but you look so beautiful, my new supplier. I used to like smoking to stop all the thinking, but I found a different buzz.

The world is a curse, it'll kill if you let it I know they got pills that can help you forget it, they bottle it, call it medicine, but I don't need drugs. 'Cause I'm already high enough, you got me, you got me good."

- High Enough by K. Flay

covers his need for attention and approval with loudness and chaos

Fear of missing out

Afraid that people will forget about him and leave him behind

Avoids talking and thinking about his own feelings

Cannot control his emotions when overwhelmed

Hides it when deeply hurt

Clingy drunk, cries if left by himself

Has a soft spot for pets, especially dogs (once he even accidentally cuddled Padfoot without knowing it was actually Sirius)

Hopeless romantic when in a serious relationship

Incredibly intelligent, he just doesn't want to please his father in any way so he acts out

Jokes about his trauma in public, but ends up sleeping in Evan's bed whenever he has nightmares

ADHD kid

Makes dirty jokes all the time but is afraid of having a stable relationship and not being enough for his partner

Evan Rosier

"And hey, you, don't you think it's kinda cute that I (I) died (died) right inside your arms tonight? That I'm fine even after I have died? Because it was in your arms I died.

I cry in the afterlife, I cry hard because I have died, and you're alive. I try to escape afterlife, I try hard to get back inside your arms alive."

- Arms Tonite by Mother Mother

Calm and collected most of the time

Silent anger

Insomniac, spends the nights reading and listening to chill music

Deadly afraid of spiders, always asks Pandora to take them outside

Energy drinks and caffeine

If looks could kill

Tries to keep everyone from getting in trouble together with Dorcas

Doesn't pay attention in class but gets good grades anyway

Grew up too quickly

Joins Barty and Dorcas whenever they are tipsy and start a singing contest

Likes nights out with friends, randomly walking with no precise destination, a few drinks in hand and the warmth of chosen family around him

The observant, silent one

Always carries small perfume vials since he can't stand smells (sweat, cigarette smoke, etc.)

Pandora Rosier

"You don't have to be like everybody else, you don't have to fit into the norm, you are not here to conform. I am here to take a look inside myself, recognize that I could be the eye, the eye of the storm.

I am not my body, not my mind or my brain (ha), not my thoughts or feelings, I am not my DNA. I am the observer, I'm a witness of life, I live in the space between the stars and the sky."

- Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land by MARINA

Already figured who was going to end up in a relationship with whom years before it happened

Has a private gardening spot where she grows their own plants (especially herbs)

Follows the lunar calendar instead of the solar one, they all celebrate both new years with big parties

Wears long airy dresses with flower patterns and a dozen crystal necklaces and rings

Talks enthusiastically about everything she's passionate about with no restraints (and everyone loves listening to her talk)

Knows weird knowledge nobody knows from where

Walks Hogwarts' halls singing and with a spring in her step

Spends afternoons in the forest sketching fantastic beasts and feeding them treats

Loves making flower crowns, Regulus wears them whenever she makes one for him and hexes anyone who dares say something about it

Always has paint on her hands or face

Dorcas Meadowes

"Say my name, as every colour illuminates. We are shining, and we will never be afraid again.

And when we come for you, we'll be dressed up all in blue, with the ocean in our arms, kiss your eyes and kiss your palms.

And when it's time to pray, we'll be dressed up all in grey, with metal on our tongues, and silver in our lungs."

- Spectrum (Say My Name) by Florence and The Machine

Hates small talk and superficial friendships

Direct, immediately cuts straight to the point

Politically active against all kinds of discrimination and violence

Strong and determined to achieve what she wants

Ready to argue with anyone, anytime, anywhere

Knows exactly what she wants

Stays up late to read and listen to music in the common room

Has everything planned out

Neon lights and cocktails, loud music and cherry flavored lip balm

Travels a lot but is ready to return home immediately if one of her close friends needs her help

Elegant style, always impeccably dressed

Storms out of the dorm and takes a long walk whenever she feels she can't control her anger

Loves to listen to true crime podcasts

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So I love the Marauders' gang, but (I don't know if you guessed it) I really have a soft spot for the Skittles. To me they feel like the ones who never really even had a chance to be saved, who were left to fend for themselves and to die just because of their families and house. They were damaged as much as the others but found no one to help them but each other.

[kittykatkatelol2]

"Panic Attacks" Jegulus Oneshot

Warning: Panic Attacks

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James was curled up in a small ball, hiding himself in a tiny cubby hole that he barely fit into, and having one of the worst panic attacks of his life.

Tears rolling down his face, breath barely able to get into his lungs, and feeling like the entire world was going to end.

What caused it? 

A balloon.

Not just any fucking balloon, but one that popped.

James couldn't stand a balloon popping, could not stand it.

And he wasn't expecting it either, which made it worse; he was completely concentrated on finishing his essay for transfiguration when it happened.

He couldn't stop the tears from leaking his eyes, the pure panic filling his being, the shortness of breath that greeted him.

Sirius had been trying to comfort James, but all he did was make it worse somehow.

It wasn't Sirius's fault; James just couldn't get it all to stop. 

He couldn't control all the thoughts getting worse as Sirius talked to him and tried to help him.

He just needed to be alone, or at least have someone to fucking be useful.

Desperately.

* * *

Regulus came straight into the empty classroom where James was still squeezed into the cubby hole and panicking like his life depended on him panicking for as long as possible.

Regulus has had his own fair share of panic attacks, for a multitude of reasons, he knew the feeling well to say the least.

But everyone was different, so what worked for Regulus, might not work for James, but he was sure as fuck going to try.

Regulus didn't say anything as he sat down close to where James was hyperventilating.

He made no sudden movements, staying quiet, and not touching James.

"Hey.. darling.. I'm right here.. You're safe.."

Regulus whispered, his voice the quietest James had ever heard; not that he was listening very much as his mind was too focused on the impending doom he was convinced was going to occur.

Regulus went on to start, very quietly, talking about his day.

Not because he wasn't trying to help James calm down, quite the opposite, trying to distract James from the panic.

So Regulus talked in a very quiet tone about his day.

About Barty and Evan being fucking disgusting in public, like always.

About him and Pandora talking about the most random of shit.

About Sirius coming to him to borrow a dress Regulus never wore and never would.

About him and Dorcas talking about classes.

About him and Remus discussing books and poetry.

And it worked.

James, albeit very slowly and reluctantly, came out of the small cubby hole, and came to rest on Regulus's lap.

His breathing much more steady, the tears mostly dried, his heartrate calming, as he rested against Regulus.

Regulus continued to talk until James was basically asleep on him.

He sighed and wrapped his arms carefully around his sleeping sun, and held him close as he slept.

His mind finally at peace.

Both their minds at peace.

Completely content.

. . .

From then on, whenever James would have a panic attack, such as this one, Regulus would comfort him by just speaking in a quiet voice, talking about anything; which almost always worked.

James would do the same for Regulus, who, despite masking it pretty well, had them far too often, like James.

Because like it or not, they were broken, but at least they could be broken together.

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[sunchasingstar]

Fame AU w Trans Regulus getting famous from singing Eat Me by Demi Lovato w his band mates, Barty Crouch Jr., Evan Rosier, and Dorcas Meadows.

Like Regulus would be lead singer/frontman (sometimes he also plays violin), Dorcas gives me hella drummer vibes- that or lead guitar and back up vocals. Barty is def the lead guitar, but him and Cas are interchangeable. Evan is bass and piano.

They all kinda do backup vocals or sing for some songs depending, and they’ll write songs together, although most are done by Regulus and the band manager, Pandora Rosier.

Be more predictable

Be less political

Not too original

Keep to tradition, but stay individual

Dirty but washable

Winning but stoppable

All that I'm hearing is you wanna

Make the impossible possible

This is purely Barty’s verse, are you kidding me? Like he wrote this after after his father went big in politics, which of course, his son was against because his father is a dickhead.

Is this what you'd all prefer?

Would you like me better if I was still her?

Did she make your mouths water? Ugh

I know the part I've played before

I know the shit that I've ignored

I know the girl that you adored

She's dead, it's time to fucking mourn

I can't spoon-feed you anymore

I can't spoon-feed you anymore

Dinner's served, it's on the floor

I can't spoon-feed you anymore

You'll have to eat me as I am

You'll have to eat me as I am

I feel like this is so Regulus coded that I shouldn’t even point it out💀 he’s talking to his family and the public image he had to play when he was being controlled by his family. “I know the shit I’ve ignored,” def talking about Sirius and his disownment. Just this verse in general screams Regulus.

Clean and digestible (clean and digestible)

Less of a spectacle (less of a spectacle)

Oh, and dimensional

Try to be sexy, but don't be too sexual (don't be too sexual)

Please be presentable (please be presentable)

This one feels like Evan especially the “try to be sexy, but don’t be too sexual,” because I hc him as asexual and I feel like he struggled with that a lot and forced himself to be this sex image to try and hide who he was and so the “please be presentable” feels like a plea to be ‘presentable’ for his family; or ‘normal’ for them.

Bit more accessible (bit more accessible)

Get up on your pedestal

Everyone's watching, so don't be forgettable

Longer hair and tighter clothes

Would you like me better if I didn't oppose?

Silver platters, pretty bows, fuck

I feel like Dorcas definitely wrote this after being told she wasn’t proper simply because of style and because she’s had to face the cruelty and stereotypes that society pushes on woc and that women in general are sexualized as a whole and I think she’d channel her anger in the lyrics.

[fic-recs-4myself]

What is your favourite Drarry fic and favourite Wolfstar fic?

First of hi!! I think you are my first ask ever, this blog is purely my fanfic reblogs repository so it's nice to see someone else here.

I wouldn't say I have one only favorite of this but I can give you a top five

WOLFSTAR TOP 5

A. All the young dudes by MsKingBean89

This one's mandatory but I have to admit I never finished it. I'm too scared to read the ending even if I already know what happens.

But I just love how their characters are portrayed especially Remus!

B. Text Talk by Merlywhirls

This one's also a classic but, It's so cute, so sad, so adorable and unique. Truly something to read over and over again.

C. (The entirety of )Discard Verse by picascribit

Im pasting the series summary here because I can't describe it better and everyone should give it a chance. Beware of the warnings tho!

Non-magic Wolfstar AU romance set in contemporary Seattle. Sirius is a mixed race White/Japanese trans man, and an assistant librarian at the Seattle Public Library. Remus is Latino and an HIV+ homeless college student and sex worker. There are some angsty bits, but overall it's not a downer.

My sweet Remus is the strongest person alive in every fic I love him so much.

D. Pray the gay away by orphan account

Remus' parents send him to a Christian camp designed to help him control his “Same Sex Attraction”. Once there, Remus finds himself rooming with the devilishly handsome bad-boy, Sirius Black. Will he give in to temptation? Could the attraction he feels for Sirius be more than physical? Non-Magical 1970s AU

Amazing work it's as beautiful as it's sad. Again beware warnings.

E. Don't fuck this up lupin by blibberinghumdiggory

Short cute soulmates au fic

DRARRY TOP 5

A. F*ck! by shushu_yaoi_lj

Cute and hot an so much fun to read

B. The importance of being Draco Malfoy by poppyhills

The amnesia fic you didn't know you needed but I can assure you you do. It's so much fun and such an unique view of Draco's mind.

C. Dear cousin, love Regulus by LLAPI115 and XxTheDarkLordxX

Quite honestly the drarry takes a backseat to all the character work Draco does but still beautiful and necessary read

D. Chaos is my second home by

This is the third work of the series and you should probably read the other ones to understand but basically it's our boys with a whole less trauma sort of. Since Vernon and Lucius died when their kids are babes their upbringing is really different and their relationship later has a whole other first steps and I loved all the thought put into their characters.

E. Silk Sheets

Purely porn without (much) plot but I believe it deserves a special mention because of all the times I have read it.

Welp! That's it, honestly I just checked my AO3 bookmarks to make this list but it was really nice to remember all these lovely fics sorry I didn't tag them but you can find them by name or author on AO3. I have a bunch more of fics left especially drarry so let me know if you want me to post another list!

[itsjaywalkers]

As the person asking for the reg nsfw headcanons (I pinky promise it’s me) I was thinking interviewer reg, but honestly anything works :)

i actually got two of these nonnie so . now i'm conflicted.. who's the original one huh..

but it's fine bc i'm nice like that and i love talking about my silly lil miserable guy (regulus) so !! sure u can have some interviewer reg nsfw hcs !! i love calling them hcs as if i'm not the author lmao

like i've already mentioned, he isn't super sexually active!! he does have some casual sex sometimes, to relieve stress and simply bc he enjoys it, but he's a very busy man (and fairly well-known too) so he's gotta be careful + has other priorities

regardless, he's a bit of a menace in bed

he knows what he wants and what he likes, and he's usually very confident in bed (apart of when he gets like . dysphoric yk) (which fortunately doesn't happen that often anymore)

he usually prefers anal not only bc he genuinely likes it but also . bc he isn't always comfy with using his front hole with ppl he doesn't trust/isn't close with, and it's easier to go for anal sex rather than going for his front hole just to realise that he isn't really feeling it and having to bring it up to his one night stand

this is different with james obviously!! not bc he has feelings, we all know that at the beginning is mere attraction, but bc he knows him

when they begin hooking up they're kinda close and despite how reg insists he can't stand him, there's some trust between them and james doesn't feel like a stranger!!

that being said, they also have anal sex ofc

like james, reg is also very switchy, but unlike him, he's very aware that he likes both, having control + relinquinshing it AND both topping and bottoming

he's kinda topped almost as much as he's bottomed tbh. but then again, he doesn't sleep around THAT often

he's veryyyy into spanking, both giving and receiving (impact play in general tbh)

tends to get quite loud

kinda into exhibitionism + vouyeurism but he didn't really know until james, bc again, he tends to be very discreet about his sex life, and never has it in outrageous places

the most public setting for him has been a cheeky blowjob in a club's toilets (again, until james)

isn't usually fond of pet names outside of sex but digs them when he's very horny (there's a shift in how he feels when james uses them once they start hooking up + when they begin dating)

loves to get choked during sex (also enjoys doing the choking, but prefers receiving)

more into hickeys and bruises than he'd like to admit but since his job doesn't allow to have these kinds of marks on display, he tends to not indulge in it, and always tells his partners to not leave anything on his skin

has toyed with bondage before, but nothing too intense or complicated

very into overstimulation

dacryphilia!! which he discovers thanks to james, when he begins topping him and makes him sob into the matress for the first time

has never seen the appeal of sex tapes or nudes and he's still not that much of a fan once he gets with james BUT they're both quite filthy and the thrill kinda does something to him + he likes watching himself and james have sex

as insatiable as james, gets horny easily but is a lot better at hiding it

praise kink!! and humiliation kink!! leans more towards the former tho

enjoys degrading james immensely

and we're gonna leave it there for now <3

[wordsofwilderness]

Mid-week snippet

Thank you to @onehundredflamingos for the tag!

Here's a little snippet for an upcoming fic of mine:

Regulus got few opportunities like this. Away from the prying eye of the public. Able to fade enough into the background to appreciate so openly. Always the picture-perfect son. Squeaky clean image and not a gossip headline in sight. Who didn’t date, only because of his time-consuming dedication to his craft. Or that was the official story anyway.

Reality told another one. Take for example the two people standing only a short distance away. Long, blond hair, the perfect contrast to the women’s black leather top. She was pretty. But that was his well-trained eyes from the fashion world speaking. No, it was the man chatting her up, that drew his eye. The jacket and tie of his suit were thrown on the sofa in the booth behind them. Warm, golden skin exposed by rolled-up sleeves. Arms flexed an extravagant amount as he leaned on the wall beside him.

Regulus snorted at the brazen attempt at flirting. Not that it wasn’t a welcome display. Hollywood, what a place to be gay. Beautiful people and cameras everywhere. He was under no illusion as to what would happen if the world found out. If his mother found out. All the pride in the world didn’t matter when his entire life was controlled by that woman. And he wasn’t about to throw out the little freedom he’d begun to claw back.

So, he made himself content with watching. Letting his eyes travel from the dark, tussled strands of hair to the trousers that seemed both a size too small and perfectly tailored. The excellent example of clothing that exposed nothing while showing everything. The man threw his head back in a laugh, making his face visible for the first time.

Regulus nearly spat out the sip of his drink. Of course, it was him. Just lovely. He’d spent who knows how long staring at James Potter’s ass. Perfect. Absolutely perfect. Regulus frowned. The Hollywood darling boy. Movie star. Icon. Everyone either wanted to be James or be with him. Regulus wasn’t sure which sounded worse.

Where Regulus stayed out of the gossip headlines at all costs, James lived on the front page. Heartbreaker. Playboy. Womanizer.

No pressure tags for @artieststuff, @softest-cinnamon-roll and @violetmisty <33

[childotkw]

What's with rabastan being such a creep anyway?

Does Sirius know?

Other than him being a bit of a sociopath? He's kind of obsessed with the Black family.

He was super salty that his brother got to marry Bellatrix, and was hoping to nab either Narcissa or Andromeda for himself - only Narcissa married Lucius and Andromeda noped out of the family tree, which was good on her. Sirius was persona non grata, a blood traitor and considered a blight / shame by most of the pureblood social circle.

So that just left Regulus as the unfortunate target of that obsession.

In the original timeline, Regulus was largely shielded from Rabastan by his parents. He had to endure some unwanted attention from the man, but with his parents controlling every aspect of his life, he wasn't left alone and unobserved enough for Rabastan to make too much of a ruckus.

However, in ays(aml), Regulus assumes the lordship of his family quite young. He doesn't have his parents to act as that buffer anymore, and his plans demand him to be in public more than he was in his previous life. He's playing a game, and that leaves him relatively unable to just ignore Rabastan when the man comes sniffing around.

Which means that, unfortunately, we'll have a front row scene to many uncomfortable scenes that involve Rabastan being a dick, and Regulus trying not to roll his eyes.

And Sirius won't know the details for a long while. But if / when he finds out - oh boy. He's not happy. At all.

[birlwrites]

sorry for bothering you with the asks *again* but could you tell us something about how the power and influence might change under regulus' rule? also it's so funny to me how the dark network is still holding a grudge towards the weasleys, tho tbf i would too

you are not bothering me at all!

so, the first and foremost thing is: i don't know the details. i know very bare bones, but i find it pretty useless to try to outline details super far in advance because i always end up changing things as i write depending on what fits, and then i reach that far-off point and the story bears only the vaguest resemblance to what i thought it would be when i outlined that part

but i can say this: regulus is waging an ideological war, not leading a revolution. he's not in this to overhaul the ministry or anything like that. he has 2 very specific goals, and yes they're sizable, but he's not *in* this to gain absolute control over the country. he'd be so bored with just telling people what to do. he needs to solve a little puzzle to figure out how to make them do what he wants. if regulus had absolute control over wizarding britain he'd probably start a war with france just for something to do

so as things stand, i don't see any big changes to the general structure of magical society. behind the scenes, the most important thing is coalitions in the wizengamot that will support regulus's policy agenda, with great power comes great ability to ruin people you don't like, etc.

the war is also a PR game because you're looking to change the public opinion such that anyone in the future who tries to start another war over this same damn thing will be laughed out of the room. when you tell other people what to think, some of them will swallow it and some of them will fight back. so you have to lead them to your conclusion, letting them think they're reaching it of their own accord. that means that seizing control of the country is Not a great move because then people are on high alert looking for despot signals

(which is why evan, heather, and lily are so important - the former for their skillsets, the latter for, as regulus says somewhere, proof of concept.)

but mostly once regulus wins the war, everyone who supported him gets the bonus of him not trying to tear them into pieces

[padfootastic]

I am obsessed with how the Black family kids must have been during their childhood and how that translated during their Hogwarts years. I feel like they must’ve been close because it feels like their parents just wouldn’t let them really associate with anybody other than their family, because the adults definitely had a “we’re better than everyone else around” thing going on and so the kids only socialized with each other really. They have so much shared history and know each other better than almost anyone, but then they get to Hogwarts and it all falls apart, with the war just providing the final blow.

i’m actually super obsessed w these messed up family dynamics lmao

especially like. siblings who were super, super close but then pushed away bc of factors outside their control. regulus & sirius are one thing—and i think it would be more straightforward to deal with as well bc of proximity and the nature of their conflict. but the black sisters and sirius? i feel like that’d be so much more convoluted. and i have such a soft spot for bellatrix for some reason. it’s like u mentioned—i can see them being so, so possessive of their family (some of my fav fics explore this side of the black family and i can never get enough!!) and not allowing anyone but themselves to touch them.

like, i feel like if anyone but bellatrix had killed sirius, then they would’ve been in a world of hurt lmao (crack plot twist: the real reason she/others hated peter was bc of how his actions affected sirius, not just bc of the voldemort thing lol) but then there’s also like. what happened to bellatrix that made her capable of killing her own family? i realise that dilemma arises out of headcanon territory—it’s entirely possible canon bella did not care at all about family that much, or at least, blood traitors who betrayed their own—but i don’t know, i like thinking of different ways it could’ve gone.

also,,,i think there’s like this arrogant, blood/family purity aspect too? like, yeah, we can lambast sirius but no one else is worthy of doing the same. how dare you, as a lower pureblood/half blood/mudblood even think of acting like ur better than him (than us)?

but at the same time. this is possibly au territory. but i also like the thought of sirius & bella maintaining a secret, tense, but still somewhat cordial relationship at hogwarts, like in public, they hate each other, but behind closed doors, there’ll be stiff conversations and even stiffer hugs and birthday traditions at midnight and a shoulder to cry on and promises of hexing anyone who heckles either of them, ykno? like. it’s not easy or simple, but they try and make it happen bc they’re the oldest in a complicated family and they get it like no one else and no matter how much they hate each other, they also can’t let go ykno?